lost in my thoughts

i am lost in my thoughts. i am told, severally, that i overthink. and i think i should stop but i don't know how and where to.

and i had a heart 2 heart chat with astri, hana, yana about my sexuality. man i thought i am over this. apparently i'm still puzzled. it all staretd when astri asked: so what is it that you wannabe (sexuality)? and i reluctantly answered cause i was extremely embarrassed to talk about it yet i wanna. see how weird that is?

and i still have to get the part that i have an AVERAGE iq i.e. stop acting as if i'm very smart. i can't hand around smart people cause i can NEVER keep up. 

i wannabe smart cause i don't wannabe bullied. i was bullied when i was more naive and pathetically immature. and i hated that big time lah.

i think i'm still looking for 'me'. so meanwhile i'm hanging around.

i know we can tell how intelligent a person is from the way he talks and writes. many think i am from the way i talk. but writing wise - CHECK OUT THE POOR WRITING! it's quite in your face right ruzaini? so, suck it in! be embarrassed and thickened yourself. now that's how it seems like how it should be. so you're gonna go all red. (sigh) what to do.

the more i run, the more tired i'll be. but it'll improve my stamina. bad analogy. but basically...you know what i mean lah.

man. i'm lost in my thoughts.

ps: i think i just overthink again? is it a work in progress? =S