blunt blundering

ok...

turns out, my plan won't work!

i don't have enough to do everything and still graduate a semester earlier! OH SHUX!

so either i take more mods and graduate later or matriculate straight to nus.

option 1

exemptions allowed for up to 1) 8MCs (1 gen ed + 1 breadth), 2) 12MCs (3 mods) of UE and 3) 20MCs programme requirement. i.e. 20MCs! ( i know. wtf, right?)

option 2

apply to fass. or apply to civil engine then transfer to fass. =(

i did some calculations last night to see if its worth going poly and find out that i won't have enough MCs to do the other mods unless i stay longer (i.e. it'll be the same as going uni straight)!

man! i hate this dilemma. on one hand, i wanna try out my luck in poly before going uni. on the other, i wanna do so many things in uni which i can't cause of the credit exemptions.

i was very sure i wanted to go poly two weeks ago. now, i'm not.

pissed, disappointed, confused.

i had my reasons. they were:

1) i was looking for an alternative route for my education
2) i like being part of the poly culture
3) i don't wannabe caught in the same rat race as the "JC kids" ("poly kids" are more laid back but they still produce results)
4) i got a diploma in business
5) which allows me to do sth that i like in uni (philo/tsd/lit/e lang/eu studies/pol sci)

but the reason that negates them all

*6) i suddenly don't have a good feeling about going poly

i want to create opportunities for myself. i want to grow as a person and a performer. so i thought that maybe taking the longer and less travelled by route will give me some satisfaction. OBVIOUSLY, NOT!

i like the mods offer at np biz school. i getta do a lil bit of marketing, pr, advertising and business admin. yet i'm having doubts if i should do this. why?